this is the only person i need in my life...(:
they say that it is easy to learn how to forgive somebody..im starting to learn that whoever said that is full of it. I've learned that you can forgive someone but that doesnt always mean that you forget what they have done to you. In my lifetime i have been hurt one to many times and i have learned that a weakness of mine is learning how to forgive someone. It took me 5 years to forgive my mother for what she did to me. So too everyone who is ready this im sorry if i have hurt you because i hold grudges...it's something that i am working on. i know it's a flaw in my character but you either love me for what i am or HATE me for what i am not...the choice is yours. i have the people in my life that i need. so if you cannot accept that then maybe i am better off without you. i dont like being part of a crowd..i like being different and fitting into my own image. i am growing into my own person now and becoming a women. I have learned that sometimes when you really love something you have to "let it go" and eventually if it was meant to be they will come back to you.. <3 i have all i need right now though, and my life is finally heading in the direction that it needs to be...
You think that because you have been a friend for 5 years makes you better than me? You think because you have "known her longer" and "always been there for her" makes you a bestfriend? Well i am here to tell you that you are wrong! just because you have been all those things doesnt make you a better friend than me...it is obvious that if i am as close to her as you have ever been that maybe i am fufilling your roll a little better than you are. Time is nothing but a number... You think that you can be all "buddy buddy" with me to get close to her..but guess what? It aint happening! You have lost the greatest thing that you have been given and now you are going to try to cause me to lose it also? WOW! what a great friend....Don't be nice to me if deep down inside you envy what i had...because quite frankly you have lost your MIND! Play with fire and you will get burned......
I wonder if there is anyone left out there? Anyone who will love me for who I am and not what i have done. Then i came about to meet my now bestfriend Isabella McElveen. She is the first person that i have met to accpet me for me....the real me. The me that no one else knows. She has seen me in my lows and highs and she still loves me and never leave my side. What would i do without her. Well i know that....i would DIE! She is someone that i know i can depend on, which lately she seems like the only person. People have hurt me lately. More so than ever. The last time that i have felt this way was when my mom left. She is the one person that i can count on..... <3\
